This morning was a tough one. Last night Karen told me that she got work on another movie set but it would be 3 hours away...That makes me so sad...My best friend is now out of the house and who is going to go on my walks with me and watch Sex in the City now. : (
With that being said I am alone in the house. Beth is pressure washing her parents deck and staining it for a grand so that she can have some money went she goes to England for 2 months. Dont get me wrong...I love my alone time but I do have to say I didnt get any sleep last night. It was the first time sleeping alone in months. You see, I use to live by myself (for the last two years) and I got really use to it. I like it and thought that I would never live with anyone again. I loved the fact that I could clean or put something somewhere and it would STAY there! Well Karen and her boyfriend broke up and she needed a place to live for a month or two until she found another place. Me, being a good friend said "yes". She moved in and it went exactly the way that I thought it was going to go...great. The only thing though was that I was so in a rut. I am a control freak and I like to be SUPER organized. When you live by yourself you can really get stuck in your ways of doing things and I have to say once K moved it it kinda turned my world upside down. I am a super clean person and ummmm Karen is not that much. Well. I take that back my standards would make ANYONE not that clean. I am a freak. It freaked me out that I would come home and dishes would not be done, thing would be lying around the house and I would have people come over without me knowing . OH MY GOD, right? Not! I was so used to NO SPONTANEITY in my life that went something happened and I didnt plan for it I would freak. In case you didnt realize I have changed! Well in those two months I warmed up to the idea of having someone around and with her telling me every day what a dump I lived in and how awful it was to live there. My eyes opened. I dont know how but they did. You see, I lived in this OLD house that was built in the 1900's that use to be a old store. It looked so homey and sweet, a little shack close to downtown. Well...That little shack had no HEAT and NO AIR in it. I lived like that for 6 years people, 2 of which I was alone. I went through a divorce and everything else that comes along with that in the most uncomfortable situation imaginable. I literally had no idea what living conditions I was living in. Sometimes when you are in the middle of things you cant see what is really going on. Well once Karen moved in (she moved in December) I pretty much had to hear all day everyday how I had to get out and that the house was causing me to be depressed and just not myself anymore. I had no idea. One morning I woke up to get in the shower and when I tried to move the shower curtain to get in the tub the shower curtain was FROZEN to the tub. The water wouldnt come out of the drain and I was just a mess. YOU have no idea how cold it got in that house. You could see your breath at all times and it was unbearable. I spent most of my time in bed there. The only thing that I had that did save my life was a electric blanket. One that was given to me out of charity. I would get home from the gym, shower make some hot tea and get right into bed at like 7:00 for the rest of the night. The depression was horrible. I got in a rut. Karen had no idea until she moved in with me and saw what was going on. After roughing it for two months she came to me one day and said "Heather, no offense but I cant do this anymore, I don't care how much money I am saving, I am moving." I was speechless. I felt guilty that I had made her live in such a horrible condition but it wasn't my fault. The house was old and just didn't have the heat and air to make it comfortable, I didn't have the money to heat it anyway. I said "Ok, well...where are you going." She explained to me that there was this amazing house that was in the best neighborhood in Athens and it had central heat and air and the rent was cheap. That she was going to be living with her Friend Beth. I was sad but I understood. A few days passed and I was getting used to the idea of being alone again in my horrible house and really didn't want to spend another summer there in that place (it is like a oven there in the summer and a freezer in the winter.) I then said "well, Karen I have decided to look for another place to live on my own.) A few days passed and Karen and I was on a walk and we were talking and she just said "Heather, I know that you want to live alone but what do you think about moving in with me and Beth?" I was hesitant to ask you because no offense but you are a little set in your ways and I want a fun light interesting living situation where anything goes. At first I thought "No way, I am not going to be living in a party house where stuff is not in my control..." Nope. Then she told me how much my rent would be...See, I never wanted to leave my current situation because my rent was super cheap and I always told myself that I would not leave it unless I found a better deal (which wasn't going to happen in this town) Well. It did. She took me to look at the house and I fell in love. It was perfect. My room is on the other side of the house and I even have my own entrance. I was sold. I said "yes!". But wait one thing....If I am going to make this change I REALLY want to change. You see, I hated my life. For two straight years I was stuck. I was in a relationship that wasn't good for me, working a job that was killing me, living in a house that was horrible and in the meantime not doing any music (my love) or living life really. I spent most of my time alone, in my bed and sad. There I said it. So I said "ok, Karen!!!" Yes! Just one thing though. If I am going to do this I have got to do this right. I don't want any bills in my name, I dont want to be in charge of ANYTHING. In case you dont know, that was HUGE. She was like "deal". I figured that if I was going to change my living situation I would change it all. Even myself. I knew that I had to do something and I knew that it had to happen now. Then I told Karen that I needed some extra time to get things packed and moved over there. She would be moving in a month before me and that way I would have the house to myself and be able to start the madness of packing and moving without subjecting her to it. She agreed and so did Beth. So, Karen moved in and I was alone, again. It was a terrible month I do have to say. I had gotten used to having someone pulling me out of bed and making me do stuff. I didnt have that anymore, I was sad. Well at the beginning of March a snow storm oddly enough happened. I was at my house alone, in bed (of course) and then it happened...A huge tree fell on my house. It was so scary. I jumped out of bed and looked out side. 
This picture doesn't do it justice because it is only half way in the picture. This tree was HUGE and covered my house. It fell over the bedroom/kitchen area. The roof started to leak, I had no power and I was stranded. It was the coldest two days of my life. No electric blanket no nothing and I made myself live through it. I called Karen and said "I have got to get out of here, now." I saw this as a sign and I like to acknowledge signs when I see them. Karen said "you want to move in early???" I could tell that even she wasn't ready for me to be there yet. I cried and was just a mess. "Yes, I have got to get out Karen, I cant live with my kitchen leaking and I am freezing." She said "okay." So right then I made up my mind and did something unplanned for the first time in two years...I picked up the phone and scheduled a "pick-up" from my local thrift store. On the phone the guy said "what are we picking up?" I said "The whole house". I am trying to make this LONG LONG LONG story short. I had decided that I didnt want all my depressing things to come along with me to my new place, I wanted to be a new women. I had emotional ties to almost everything in the house from my marriage and friends that were no longer with me. I had no help to move and I didn't know what I was going to do. With a deep breath and a few hours The Potters House came and took it. Took it all. I kept my bed, my dressers and a few kitchen appliances. I was so afraid but excited and honestly shocked when I watched them load up my things in the truck. I got a couple of people to help me move my things to the new place and I was done. I remember the first night at the new place. It felt like I had just woke up, seriously. Like I was asleep for the last two years and just awoke. I laid there in my bed in my new place and just was in aw. "This is my new place?" You mean I can actually stay here? Yes. I could, and would. I moved in a month early but it couldn't have come at a better time in my life. It was March, spring was coming and I was ready for my life to change. It was so weird but the second I entered the house I was happy. I wasn't in control, I didn't want to be in control. I LOVE the fat now that when I get home who knows who will pop in and what is going on. I dont have to do the darn dishes as soon as I get done with them and I am no IN CHARGE! Life is so good for me right now and it is because Karen pushed me and I pushed myself even more. I now realize that I had a REALLY bad gas leak at the old place that was contributing to my down mood. I was breathing in gas for two years and felt like I was in slow motion all the time. I thought it was just because I was depressed and tired, I was but the gas made it that much worse. On top of no heat or air. So yea, this long entry was written this morning because last night I was going to bed and felt uneasy. It was because I was all alone and I didn't want to be and wasn't use to it because I have had wonderful Beth or Karen there. This morning when I woke up (didnt hear the alarm and was 30 minutes late). I just felt good. Knowing that I was alone but not really. That my life is so different and just because I don't have Karen and Beth there I can still be fun and not in control of everything. I ran out of the house. Didn't make the bed, didn't wash the coffee cup and didn't care. This is a little bit about me and the things that have gone on in my life the last few months. I am so happy. Happier than I thought I could be. Even being late to work this morning and running around made me happy. So enjoy your Tuesday and I hope you feel like you know me a little more this morning. I am warm. I am comfortable. I am changed.
So this morning was a great chia oatmeal breakfast. Yum!
I added some raspberries to make it extra special. This morning has flown by and I am already hungry for this:
Chobani plain Greek yogurt with walnuts and raspberry jam. I also will be having this scrambled egg white omelet. This will get me through to lunch with no problems!I have decided that a nice walk on my lunch break and enjoy this nice weather. My back and knee is feeling much better today!
Lunch is going to be light tuna on a bed of spinach. I know I know I know...Boring! But hey, it is what I got to work with!
Green tea these days is what perks me up after lunch time nad gets me through the rest of my 
work day. Tuna these days have been a great way to have lunch. I must admit it is only because of how easy it is to open the can and put it on top of my spinach!
This evening is another Fabulous Tofu creation, I wonder when I will get sick of tofu? NEVER! 
This is going to be sooooo good and I plan on having a snack later that evening which will be a banana and some PB2 (my absolute favorite!). I added a ton of veggies to this tofu creation and seriously this picture does not do it any justice at a
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ll. This is going to be my bed time snack that I am already looking forward too, I usually try not to eat any carbs after 4:00 but hey, changes happen!
So there you have it guys! My menu for this fine Tuesday. I am hoping to get in a 50 minute walk and about 40 minutes of swimming. I cant wait to be able to lift some weights soon. It is just amazing that you can be out of the gym for a week and get so flabby so quick! I mean, shesh! I got two LOVELY e-mails late last night that totally made my night and day today just thinking about it. I am getting some POM WONDERFUL juice and some AMAZING GRASS! I cant wait for these two things to come. I will be trying these two items out just as soon as I get them so keep reading for my reviews. Oh yes, I also got some Kerrigold coupons !!! To try out two items. It is going to have to wait until I have time to go grocery shopping and may have to wait until after my trip because it is cheese and butter and I totally dont want it to go to waste ! I hope your day goes speedy. Mine already is!
